When my friend died....

[YourDarkestSecret]

[glow=red,2,300]It was 9:00 at night, and I was waiting for my friend Jason to get online. At exactly 10 PM, my friend Vincent came online instead. He'd know where Jason would be.
<On MSN Messenger>

Me: Hey!
Vincent:....hey....
Me: What's up?
Vincent:...um...not much....u?
Me: Not much, just waiting for Jason to get online.
Vincent:.....there's somethign you need to know...
Me:....what is it?
Vincent: He won't be online.....tonight...or ever again....
Vincent: ....he won't be at school anymore....ever.....again.....
Me:.....what are you talking about? Why?
Vincent:...... I just got a call......from the police....his mom would ahve phoned...but....she's...really sad....i could hear her in the background....
Me: *sobs* What's going on?? You're scaring me!!
Vinceint: Hunny just relax okay.... you know he was involved in a gang right....?
Me: *sobs louder* yess!! Why??? What happened??!
Vincent:.....there was a gang fight....and he tried to leave it.....and some people followed him.....they beat him with a baseball bat.....
*an almost 2 minute pause*
Vincent:......He's dead.......someone found his body about an hour ago.....I'm so sorry....I know how much you loved him..........i gtg now though....so I'll ttyl
Me: <signs off>

I had never cried so hard in my life. I had waited almost 3 hours to tell my friend that I loved him alot...that I was IN love with him...and wanted to date him...only to find out he was murdered...I remember bauling my eyes out....huddled in the corner with a butcher knife....I went mad...my friend Jackson had come over to console me.....and I threatened to kill myself if he tried to come near me...or even kill him...eventually he called Vincent and my Josh over, my other two best friends....and they got the knife away from me.....but I had sliced my wrist....really bad. I was bleeding alot....so they covered it with a cloth. Jackson though I should have gone to the hospital but Josh said that it wasn't bleeding enough that it couldn't be stopped, so they just sat there, consoled me...I was depressed ever since that day....and I'll never forget it....

*feels like crying her eyes out*...... [/glow]

[FierceLikeTiger]

awwwww... *hugs*

[YourDarkestSecret]

*hugs back*

[RaspberryJelly]

*hugs* your post made me cry...it brought back so many memories. What happened to you is so horrific..no one ever deserves to be put through that. I can relate however...three years ago...i got a call from my friends brother which said he was in hosptial...at first i thought he'd just been clumbsy you know, fallen down the stairs, broken his leg playing rugby or something...but it turns out he was involved in a hit a run accident...he's been walking home one night and a drunk driver had hit him (he lived in a rural area..there was no pavement so he was walking you know as far over to the side of the road as he could) anyway...yeah, the driver of the car left him by the side of the road...it wasn't till the next morning he was found...still only just alive...they rushed him to hospital...i went to visit him as soon as i was allowed....it was awful, i hate hospitals at the best of times, but this was just horrible...anyway...2 days after the accident its self...i got another call from him brother...he told me that i needed to come to the hospital right away becasue they had found a large blood clot in my friend brain and they said he wouldn't survive from it....this was one of the most difficult things i have ever ever had to do...knowing that this would be the last time i ever saw my friend...i was at the hospital at the time he died. I just felt numb...like there was nothing...he died from the blood clot which burst.....

You, said that you were depressed since the day you found out....i'm exactly the same...my life went downhill from that point...i'm still not over what has happened..but i'm getting there....

If you ever want to talk about anything...add me to msn or something :0)

*hugs*

Sarah x

[YourDarkestSecret]

RaspberryJelly said:

*hugs* your post made me cry...it brought back so many memories. What happened to you is so horrific..no one ever deserves to be put through that. I can relate however...three years ago...i got a call from my friends brother which said he was in hosptial...at first i thought he'd just been clumbsy you know, fallen down the stairs, broken his leg playing rugby or something...but it turns out he was involved in a hit a run accident...he's been walking home one night and a drunk driver had hit him (he lived in a rural area..there was no pavement so he was walking you know as far over to the side of the road as he could) anyway...yeah, the driver of the car left him by the side of the road...it wasn't till the next morning he was found...still only just alive...they rushed him to hospital...i went to visit him as soon as i was allowed....it was awful, i hate hospitals at the best of times, but this was just horrible...anyway...2 days after the accident its self...i got another call from him brother...he told me that i needed to come to the hospital right away becasue they had found a large blood clot in my friend brain and they said he wouldn't survive from it....this was one of the most difficult things i have ever ever had to do...knowing that this would be the last time i ever saw my friend...i was at the hospital at the time he died. I just felt numb...like there was nothing...he died from the blood clot which burst.....

You, said that you were depressed since the day you found out....i'm exactly the same...my life went downhill from that point...i'm still not over what has happened..but i'm getting there....

If you ever want to talk about anything...add me to msn or something :0)

*hugs*

Sarah x

Awww thank you so much. *hugs you* I'm getting better though, but alot of things remind me of him. Especially the outdoors, so I hardly go outside anymore. Lol. He loved the outdoors.

But yeah. It's somethign I'm sure we'll never get over, just simply live with.

[DarkNightmare]

OMG.. "Cries" hun i dont know exactly how you feel about it but one of my bfs was killed from a gang fight awhile back and no james you never new about this. he was killed by a stab wound to the artery in the thigh he didn't even make it to a hostpital the worst part is that i didn't find out till a week after our year aniversary which was only about a month away i didn't know because no one knew it wasn't even on the news back in illinois when i go and visit his grave i cry but i know he is better off and hun beleive me i am here for you if you need someone...james dont ask about it either k i really dont want to talk about it "cries" and hugs Your Darkest Secret" i hope you get better and aren't as upset now i knew how bad it screwed me up cause i was here in iowa when he died and didn't find out till i showed up on his door step to pick him up to go out for our aniversary and his mom answered the door and forgot all about me till she saw me and she felt really bad" me and his mom are still friends and i talk to her every time i go to illinois to see family cause she is family in my mind"